A Dreamer and an Unfinished Story

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We just got back from the most magical place on earth. Disney. It was amazing. Spontaneous parades everywhere you look, choreographed dances and real life characters left and right! I can still hear Mini, Mickey, Duck Donald (what Lila calls him), and Goofy chanting, “Dreams come true! Dreams come true! Dreams come true!” 

While we were there, we heard back from a realtor who we were hoping to rent a lovely farm house from. It was going to happen and we were ready to sign the lease as soon as we could. I was chanting right along with them, dreams come true! We’ve always hoped for something like this to workout. I won’t go into all the details, just trust me, it was awesome. Well, we signed the lease, set the move in date and then he called and said, “Nevermind, I sold the house. Sorry.” 

This dream high we just came from, and my sugar high from Disney, both came crashing down right about the same time. Then I got sick. I don’t get sick often and this hit me like a ton of bricks. I have been out of commission for 11 days. It just wiped me out. I’ve been telling Jordan that my adreamal gland (similar to the adrenal gland but for dreams and wishful thinking)  is just shot. It’s hard for me to guess what’s next because I don’t want my heart to be broken and because I feel like it was all just a dream to begin with. 

I’ve always struggled with feeling the need to have something to present. I feel like when I have a story to tell, it should have a nice and neat conclusion. If I don’t have that, I keep my mouth shut. Well, I don’t have one today. I don’t know what we’re going to do next. We have to move, we have to find somewhere to move, and I know we’ll be ok. Will it be a farm house on 6 acres with a garden and chicken coop? Probably not, but we don’t need all of those things. 

So here is an unfinished story of where we are right now. We have much to be thankful for today and that’s all I can really tell you. 

Pray for us, if you can. We just want to know what the next right step is and we’ll take it. 

5 comments

  1. Judy says:

    I have been following your blog ~ Don’t give up on your farm dream it will happen. Shake it off get out the paper, go to realtor (they will hunt with you) and hunt you will find it. Sometimes the best part is in the journey but most of us don’t see it until much later. Can’t wait to see what you find

  2. Victoria says:

    I hear you. We are apartment/duplex hunting…again… that’s what you do to comply with the law when you keep having babies! It makes me jealous and then heartbroken over my covetousness to see what other people our age (and a lot younger) are able to obtain. And there are 1000 reasons, but we’re stuck in rental land. Keep praying about it, finding a home. I think it’s dangerous to keep looking for that one more thing to make your housing situation complete… because where does it end? Take care..

    • DearDarla says:

      We are in rental land too! I totally empathize with your thought process. It’s healthy to dream, but it’s unhealthy to be too discontented. I hope you guys find something soon!

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